One of those good-news, bad-news posts.
Dec. 2nd, 2004 08:23 pm![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
I appear to be a more or less fully functional precog again. (Yes, that's actually the good news. Just call me our latest example of how burning out a mutant power doesn't mean it's gone forever.) This is not, however, my precognition as I knew it before May. Charles' theory is that since the Askani are here and my connection to them in the future is broken, my precognition is free to function as it should have all along. Thus, hopefully no nasty side effects like blackouts and cardiac arrest. Actually, right now, I feel kind of good. Balanced, in a way I haven't for the better part of two years. It is however going to take me a lot of study and experimentation to figure out how to use it in any sort of productive way. Like I said, this is pretty new for me.
Bad news is, this doesn't mean I can 'fix' Marie-Ange. Now that Charles has two precogs to compare, he's established that her ability and mine are polar opposites. Hers, as we're all pretty much aware, is comparatively short-term, focused on the people around her, heightened by emotional ties, and manifests in a visual and symbolic way. My precog in its 'natural' form, based on the tests and scans Charles did this afternoon, appears to be long-term, event-based, abstract, and is triggered by patterns in information and that sort of thing.
This is one of the reasons, apparently, why the meditation I've been doing with her for all this time has only helped in the most general sort of way. What works for me is not necessarily going to be any kind of fit for her. Our abilities don't just manifest differently, they function differently. Right down to the parts of the brain that are involved, according to Charles. He has a lot of new data after having gotten a good look at me this afternoon, but no solution for Angie has presented itself just yet.
This certainly doesn't mean we've given up. I did manage to help her a little last night, but that was telepathic intervention (although apparently the mental contact with her over the past few days was probably what fired my precog back up). Her visions are less horrific now than they were, but she still has no way to filter. It's an improvement, but as I said, we're still looking for the 'fix', and very much open to suggestions.
Bad news is, this doesn't mean I can 'fix' Marie-Ange. Now that Charles has two precogs to compare, he's established that her ability and mine are polar opposites. Hers, as we're all pretty much aware, is comparatively short-term, focused on the people around her, heightened by emotional ties, and manifests in a visual and symbolic way. My precog in its 'natural' form, based on the tests and scans Charles did this afternoon, appears to be long-term, event-based, abstract, and is triggered by patterns in information and that sort of thing.
This is one of the reasons, apparently, why the meditation I've been doing with her for all this time has only helped in the most general sort of way. What works for me is not necessarily going to be any kind of fit for her. Our abilities don't just manifest differently, they function differently. Right down to the parts of the brain that are involved, according to Charles. He has a lot of new data after having gotten a good look at me this afternoon, but no solution for Angie has presented itself just yet.
This certainly doesn't mean we've given up. I did manage to help her a little last night, but that was telepathic intervention (although apparently the mental contact with her over the past few days was probably what fired my precog back up). Her visions are less horrific now than they were, but she still has no way to filter. It's an improvement, but as I said, we're still looking for the 'fix', and very much open to suggestions.